26 November, 2002 - 5:16 p.m.

"We both said for so long that it would just be easier not to try, that it has gotten to the point that I need to stop trying so that I don't lose it completely"

two thousand dollars I've spent on an airfare to spend four days with him.

half a grand worth of phonecalls later.

six whole months I've invested into hopes and dreams and plans as to how I would spend the two weeks I'd get to see him over Christmas / New Years ..

.. and now it's all just been pissed on in an email. hear me?

softcock.

and as for, "spread too thin" .. what the fuck is that?