12 March, 2002 - 2:02 a.m.

what's something that can automatically kill off any semblance of a good mood that you had carrying through with you from the weekend on a monday afternoon?

an old friend of whom you had believed that you had already lost their friendship for good several months ago telling you that you hadn't changed at all, and that even after a few weeks of things starting to look like they were on the road to being mended .. really aren't.

apparently I haven't changed as a person. and I don't have his happiness foremost in my priorities.

blah. I was really upset when I got the email from him this afternoon, but now .. now .. I don't know. I think I'm more angry now, because I can't believe that he would be so narrowminded as to not even allow me to paint him a clearer picture of what's actually transpired. Instead, he's more or less accused me of doing all these nasty and horrible things to him .. which I don't recall being the case at all. And even if I had have done; there was always - I thought - a good reason behind it.

sigh. all these eggs and only one basket to put 'em in :\