31 May, 2002 - 2:08 p.m.

I read in another persons diary that their "devotion" to write about significant events that happen to them has worn thin. To some extent, I suppose I feel the same way. It always kind of sucks when someone beats you to your own thoughts, doesn't it? But in saying that, some fairly big things have been happening lately. I guess when they happen, I want to be able to record them somewhere so that at a later date I can look back and say "hey, I remember when that happened. man, it sucked" or whatever.

So, what's new? Umm .. my boyfriend graduated from the RAAF the other week. Thus far, it's been nothing but partying for that crowd, and that's cool. I can understand that it's all huge, and that they've all just closed off a big segment of their lives. What leaves me in a state of confusion now is what happens between him and I. Back when we first started out, we alighted on the topic very briefly. We knew that his time in Perth would be limited to his training time. After his graduation, it would be a touch and go thing depending on what planes he would be allowed to fly. Neither of us has brought up the fact that our days really are just slipping through our fingers now. But in some way, I think there's an urgency between us that we both can feel. It's there in every hug, every glance, every kiss.

So who knows how that will all end. I guess we'll find out in a month, which should be interesting because we're due to leave for our holiday to Bali around about then. Oh well, I guess it would be a trip filled with "let's make the best of our last days together", which can be construed as both good and bad. Let's just hope that the cheerful, sunny dispositioned ashley goes, huh?

Bali trip's a pretty big thing. I don't know how we came to pick that as the destination. I'm fairly sure it was when we were walking up the mall and passed a travel agency. He turned to me and said, half seriously and half in jest, that we should go somewhere together. "alright" I said, just playing along, and closing my eyes I circled the board with all the prices and destinations with my index finger, and pointed.

"Bali it is" said he.

So yeah. Bali it is. I'm really looking forward to it, actually. But more on that when we get back, 'cause who knows - it might turn out to be really sucky. It's been over a year since I've been on a holiday, though, so I hope it turns out well.