09 April, 2002 - 2:20 a.m.

I never know quite what to think when you have one of those perfect moments in life. I mean .. the romantic, whimsical, and fairytale ending believer in me gets speechless because I can't believe moments like this exist -- and then of course there's the more cynical side of me which wonders how long it will last. I don't much like the cynical side of my being, but it's there, and I can't very well ignore it.

That all said and done, I'm sitting here infront of the computer cross legged with a mug of hot cocoa, warm in my baby blue flannel pj's, safe in the confines of the four walls of my room. My stereo's spinning some of my favourite mellowing tunes, while outside my open window I can hear the rain. If I glance up, I can see a moon, half hidden by light grey clouds. The rain's not heavy, but it is consistent. I like consistency. It makes me feel safe.

I know it's bad for my eyes, but the only light in the room comes from my stereo and the computer screen. The walls of my room are pale blue, my doona cover is blue, my curtains are blue, most of my stereo lights are blue. Heck, even the background screen of diaryland is pale blue. And so, as I glance idly around me, I seem to be swimming in the colour. It's so peaceful.

I am loving this moment :)