28 December, 2001 - 11:36 a.m.

My friend from Seattle arrived this morning, and so I've decided to take the rest of this afternoon off to get a slow leisurely lunch and a good old chinwag in before I have to relinquish him back to he-who-won't-speak-to-me. For some reason it strikes me like we're treating him like kid who is under joint custody, and I hate the fact that it's now like that, but really, what can I do?

I'm really excited about seeing him and everything .. and it will make a nice change from hearing his voice come over a telephone line. It'll also mean that he won't have to pay for four hour long conversation rates that are Seattle -> Perth. But I guess that's okay, he can afford it.

Honestly, the guy's one of the biggest inspirations to teenagekind. Well .. he's no longer a teen (he turned 21 in May this year) but he's currently a General Manager of this company in Seattle .. Pentdragon? Dragonpent? Something like that, and he does stuff with planes. I'm positive he's tried to explain it to me before, but I never really bothered to let it sink in.

But anyway, he started out studying over here at Notre Dame doing Law and Commerce .. something that I've wanted to do since I was about five, but unfortunately never eventuated seeing as my shit-for-stuff brains only got me high enough marks for comm.

Thinking back now, I probably should have stuck it out and tried to get my grade point average up so that I could pick up Law at a later date - but I was so disappointed in .. myself, I guess .. for not getting into it straight off that just doing plain commerce didn't cut it for me. I played the snobby bitch unto myself, and now I have to find the motivation to haul my ass back to uni to finish off what I started.

Back to the story (was there one?) Lunch today -- where tomorrow? He's here for two and a half weeks, and as much as I know that he's here to share new years and his best friends' (aka "he-who-won't-speak-to-me") birthday with him, I know that he wants to spend time with me as well.

.. I'm not just blowing my own horn, he actually said that :P

What I mean is, under the old circumstances, we would have hung out together. One because all three of us enjoyed each others company, and also two because you couldn't really get one of the guys without the other. I think I called it the joint package deal last Christmas when he was over for a fortnight. It never bothered me that much .. they're best mates after all. But it does make things rather difficult now.

You see, I don't want to be stepping on anyone's toes. And I can see how this could very quickly escalate into one of those "you're my friend, so why the hell are you spending time with them" kinda situations. Not from me, mind, but from his. Will he-who-won't-speak-to-me feel like I'm taking over his best friend? I'm not trying to gain any sort of monopoly here. I just want to be able to see my friend.

It just irks me how sometimes the most perfect of things can be marred with so little effort.